Spiritual Song-Al-haram elmasry news

 

Written by : Nahla Amer

She is pretending all the time to be strong..

but every now and then feeling down listening to that song ... 

It was as if it was written for her all the way long ..

Feeling guilty all the time though she didn't do anything wrong ...

She is fed up from living a life that doesn't look like her ..

She used to be grateful ,for they made her all the time afraid to lose what was there ..

She was taught that if you don't like what you have you'll lose what you’ve got ..

She kept blaming herself for everything happening whether  it was her fault or not  ..

She is getting now older , she can see life in a total different way ..

Why did she follow everything they once had to say ..

Why was she living as if every single mistake she will instantly have to pay ...

She wasted a lot of time living to please others ..

She was lovable in their eyes but her own soul what really bothers ..

she is not blaming anyone but she is only trying to find a way out ..

Her thoughts are getting heavier she wants to scream and shout ..

She can see herself on a road  full of doubt ..

Searching for a light to make her sure it was not an illusion..

maybe it's the spiritual path that will take her out of this confusion..

or maybe it's not a path but a sincere one taking her hands out from this delusion ..

She found herself better in writing ..

for not anyone will stand all her inner fighting..

It’s a matter of time but she knows that one day she will be strong ..

Only then she will understand the deep meaning of that song ..